har aur jeet ka faisla akhir tuk hi chor dena chahiye :)

:) she remember my smile.
I had a haircut...look like a 6 yr old instead of a 15 year old...whereas i am 20 :p
A client at the hospice says I remember you , I've met you...have you had a haircut ? I say yes :D she replies....i rememberd ur smile :) not my eyes not my nose not the dimple in my chin....she remembered my smile :)....i feel good.

jubsay maine dekhaa tujhe
phir chain aya nahi...

zindagi hai tere baghair har ghari ajnabhi

jubsay maine dekha tujhe
phir main soyi nahi...

zindagi hai tere baghair har ghari ajnabhi

yeh hawa badaban say kahaye..har taraf hai toofan...rookay kaun adnhi ko roye khudh jub asmaan...asmaan

jubsay maine dekha tujhee :)
phir chain aya nahii...

ajnabhii ajnabhii... :)

Vital signs :)

Had never really paid much attention to the name of the band but now...the name itself seems to possess such great meaning. This was the true paki pop beginnings...and even today when i hear some songs sounding like them me fall back in love with the roots. Its different and it just stays with you :) maybe thats the beauty of ur age of ur time....everything has a time and when it comes at the right time...it stays with u not matter how good or bad it is :) it was meant to be.

Most of the songs by them had great lyrics....the one i'm going over and over again nowadays is this specific one...one about fear...and uncertainty...again two very horrible but here to stay vices of the not so smart human race.Everything is different from a different perspecitve...at times fear is good...cause its whats keeps u alive...at times uncertainty is good because it prevents u from some mistakes...but both these things hold you back....in truth u don't hold back..u fall in...you can fly without wings...because u know u can....having the belief of someting is half of bring something to life :) but hold back we all shall...moments and chances we all shall miss ...and then regrets.I think i can i think i can...but do i believe that the other person can?? whenever a situation arises which involves more then u urself...troubles begin...then fear comes in ..then uncertainty plays a role....GOd is the only almighty being whose being with us brings us no fear brings in us no uncertainty....then why oh why don't we do the right thing...and fall in love....pyaar....ishq Allah say kyoun nahi....why not?? when we know this is the right way and it will lead to our ultimage happiness why do we stray back to the common human??why do we depend upon others ...those who make mistakes...those who bring all these bad feeligns in u...why depend on them...hmm ...maybe because in them we see us :) in others we see ourselves...but when they don't see themselves in u...then...the pain begins...but fate brings irony...when in place of ur reflection u see someone elses....u don't recognize urself in someones eyes...and u back away...u give in to fear....u lose against uncertainty...


Sabhi namumkin …mumkin hoa…Aik tere mere milaan keh siwa…Chala houn bans yeh soch ke…Keh tere dil main hai koi doosraa….subhi namumkin mumkin hoaa…aik tere meree milaan keh siwaaa….chala hoa bus yeh soch kehhh ….keh tere dil main hai koi dosraa….jo rastha hi milaa….who tere hi ghar ka tha…aur faasalaa…teri nazer keh siwa kuch bhi na thaa…jo meri chahat say kum na hoaa..sub dostoun ne kaha…keh kabhi nahi dil pai khaboun keh door..dil hamara mager kyoun na….keh tere siwa kuch bhi socha na tha….chala houn bus yeh soch keh…keh tere dil main hai koi dosraaa…keh tere dil main hai koi dosraa.

I've become samajhdar :) A lot of my friends have said that and maybe I have...its just that I don't really feel it. From today though me decide not to talk without thinking, alot of times thats gotten me into trouble :)

more importantly my discovery...it happened yesterday. My little kid was feeling not so well. Zari was kinda slow in moving and all... i think she had a fever. Well I was sitting and studying and she comes upto me with her back to me and just stands there...she was expecting something and I was more then willing to oblige...taking her as she was back into my lap. She just lay there with her head on my arm. My brother tried to come and take her but she resisted. She just lay there for the longest time ever. Didn't care at all. hmmm...she was feeling tired and almost fell asleep but ofcourse my jungli bhais couldn;t stand that had to scare her so she clung tighter to me. When she was just lying in my lap all content her eyelashes would brush against my arm as she blinked. It was sweet :)

Thats what we all want and crave and desire. To be important. Thats why we try and proove ourselves. Its a totally different feeling to know that there is someone who will always turn to you first. No matter what. They will depend on you...and will give you preference over everyone else. Its this feeling that shows that you have truly lived :) when you know that your life has affected someone. That someone needs and wants you :) Its a nice feeling...and people have most probably fight for this achievement. Some misuse this power...it becomes more of a power struggle then...one to control people and not to just attain their love. A mother. A mother is the one person who achieves all this without trying at all. She has the love in her and this she gives out freely. such main a mother is a very high ruba :)

someone wants me...someone needs me...my life does have an affect...it is given meaning by those who come in contact with it :)